I've been home for a little over a month. And I am loving it. I have been more social than I had been during the last year living in Oshkosh. It amazes me how much my friends have grown, matured, got their shit together and yet, they are the same immature, loud, inappropriate, idiots I loved in high school. I am feeling more grounded and more myself.
I have been working for the Boys and Girls Club for the last month. I've been in the 3rd grade classroom, working as a base room leader and now I'm starting to teach Social Skills, which I wasn't supposed to begin until the summer (long story... people had to leave the program). I'm excited to get the kids interested in learning about social skills and make it fun. The previous leader liked using books to read and the kids are getting bored... so I'm excited to make it fun! Play games! Learn while they don't know they're learning!
I've also been talking to guys on on-line dating apps. Just talking. Remembering what its like to be myself while talking to other people, introducing myself. Remembering who I am. It's been tricky. Being with the ex was easy. We knew each other, didn't have to talk about ourself, just were. And that was one of our problems. We stopped talking about our thoughts, our dreams, were we saw ourselves. I am SO not ready for another relationship. I am not ready to jump into something. But I am ready to meet people and have fun again.
I had been second guessing moving home until I actually did it. My ego got in the way. "I have 2 degrees." "I should be able to take care of myself." blah. blah. blah. But now that I'm here, it was just what I needed. A reset button. Cheap (free) housing. Help with Polly. Help with groceries. Reconnecting with friends and family. The perfect place for me to be before finding my next adventure in the world. <3 p="">
As some of my friends told me before I made the move, going home is just what you need to find yourself. I am so thankful to have a place to come home to. :)
Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Monday, March 28, 2016
Confirmation
This weekend has been a confirmation in my decision to move home for now. I had so much fun hanging out with so many friends and getting filled up with the love and support that I have needed.
Something that I have realized this weekend... I have almost NO physical contact with anyone in Oshkosh. I need that. I love the fact that I can hug my friends, touch them on the arm without it being strange. I feel comfortable with these people and I need help to re-discover myself. I am excited... but also a little nervous. I don't want to get stuck in the monotony of small town life. I want to find exciting things to do. I want to create a routine without getting bogged.
It will be a work of balance, like life.
On another note! I have an interview for the PeaceCorps in the morning! The position would begin in January and I would be living in Thailand for 27 months! Aaah! Exciting and terrifying... wish me luck :)
Something that I have realized this weekend... I have almost NO physical contact with anyone in Oshkosh. I need that. I love the fact that I can hug my friends, touch them on the arm without it being strange. I feel comfortable with these people and I need help to re-discover myself. I am excited... but also a little nervous. I don't want to get stuck in the monotony of small town life. I want to find exciting things to do. I want to create a routine without getting bogged.
It will be a work of balance, like life.
On another note! I have an interview for the PeaceCorps in the morning! The position would begin in January and I would be living in Thailand for 27 months! Aaah! Exciting and terrifying... wish me luck :)
Sunday, March 20, 2016
Moving Back After A Long While Away.
So... let's try this again. haha...
It's been almost 6 years since my last post. A lot has happened. I've been in a 5 year relationship, finished my Master's degree in Professional Counseling, moved to the other side of the state, broken up from my relationship, traveled to 2 different countries (including India, Aruba, and the Bahamas), worked with children, AODA clients, inmates, and families. And now I'm moving back home.
Long story.
Glen and I met through a friend and hit it off. We got pretty serious really quickly and 6 months after we started dating, we moved in with each other. I had gotten into grad school in Oshkosh and Glen wasn't doing anything but working so he came along. I loved my program. It helped me grow in more ways than I thought were possible. I learned so much about myself and how I interact with the world. I have so much more to learn, I still struggle with being selfish, short with people, and not being able to communicate my feelings sometimes. But ya know, its a process.
Anyway, Glen and I. We are opposites. I'm outgoing. Loud. Passionate. Extroverted. Energetic. Wanting to do new things. Travel. Eat fabulous food. Glen is quiet. Introverted. A gamer. Fairly boring. Comes up with reasons to not do things. Struggles to try new things.He is a very nice, great guy but we are opposites. I thank him for helping me get through grad school, it would have been much harder without him. But we have grown apart. We started talking less and less and then we just became roommates. And thus is life.
Which all leads me to moving back home! As of right now, I am working on getting my licensure hours for my LPC (Licensed Professional Counselor) license. Which sucks... so I'm working 2 jobs and volunteering to get my license and COMPLETELY worn out and not making enough money to afford an apartment in the Fox Valley (because I have a dog, Polly. OH! We also got a dog... that I get to keep). So I'm moving home with Polly to live with my dad. I am so thankful that I have somewhere I can go and live for free while I figure out my life but MAN ALIVE is my ego struggling with having to move home, again, when I have my Masters and "should" be able to take care of myself and make it. I'm 28 freaking years old. I have 2 degrees. And I need my parent's support still... UGH.
Not to say there aren't things I'm excited about. I am so excited to be closer to my friends and family. I have missed seeing my godsons (that's right, there are 2 now! Aiden and Declan) grow up. Hanging out with friends on a regular basis so it isn't an ordeal. Actually hanging out with my brothers, since I guess they are pretty neat people. Hanging out with my mom. Getting to know my dad better. Getting back to my farm girl roots, down and dirty, hard work and sweat, getting back into nature and seeing stars on a regular basis.
And that brings me back to starting my blog again. I'm moving home and hopefully you will hold me accountable. I don't want to waste my time at home. I want to experience new things and I want to share it. I'm not positive as to the exact purpose of writing... I'll come up with goals and whatnot in my next post.
Ta!
~*taylorjordis
It's been almost 6 years since my last post. A lot has happened. I've been in a 5 year relationship, finished my Master's degree in Professional Counseling, moved to the other side of the state, broken up from my relationship, traveled to 2 different countries (including India, Aruba, and the Bahamas), worked with children, AODA clients, inmates, and families. And now I'm moving back home.
Long story.
Glen and I met through a friend and hit it off. We got pretty serious really quickly and 6 months after we started dating, we moved in with each other. I had gotten into grad school in Oshkosh and Glen wasn't doing anything but working so he came along. I loved my program. It helped me grow in more ways than I thought were possible. I learned so much about myself and how I interact with the world. I have so much more to learn, I still struggle with being selfish, short with people, and not being able to communicate my feelings sometimes. But ya know, its a process.
Anyway, Glen and I. We are opposites. I'm outgoing. Loud. Passionate. Extroverted. Energetic. Wanting to do new things. Travel. Eat fabulous food. Glen is quiet. Introverted. A gamer. Fairly boring. Comes up with reasons to not do things. Struggles to try new things.He is a very nice, great guy but we are opposites. I thank him for helping me get through grad school, it would have been much harder without him. But we have grown apart. We started talking less and less and then we just became roommates. And thus is life.
Which all leads me to moving back home! As of right now, I am working on getting my licensure hours for my LPC (Licensed Professional Counselor) license. Which sucks... so I'm working 2 jobs and volunteering to get my license and COMPLETELY worn out and not making enough money to afford an apartment in the Fox Valley (because I have a dog, Polly. OH! We also got a dog... that I get to keep). So I'm moving home with Polly to live with my dad. I am so thankful that I have somewhere I can go and live for free while I figure out my life but MAN ALIVE is my ego struggling with having to move home, again, when I have my Masters and "should" be able to take care of myself and make it. I'm 28 freaking years old. I have 2 degrees. And I need my parent's support still... UGH.
Not to say there aren't things I'm excited about. I am so excited to be closer to my friends and family. I have missed seeing my godsons (that's right, there are 2 now! Aiden and Declan) grow up. Hanging out with friends on a regular basis so it isn't an ordeal. Actually hanging out with my brothers, since I guess they are pretty neat people. Hanging out with my mom. Getting to know my dad better. Getting back to my farm girl roots, down and dirty, hard work and sweat, getting back into nature and seeing stars on a regular basis.
And that brings me back to starting my blog again. I'm moving home and hopefully you will hold me accountable. I don't want to waste my time at home. I want to experience new things and I want to share it. I'm not positive as to the exact purpose of writing... I'll come up with goals and whatnot in my next post.
Ta!
~*taylorjordis
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